My Guru My Life
If I say that I am grateful, I am thankful or anything else for that matter, it does not suffice. Nothing that I say can ever express the love that I feel for Gurudev. I was suffering for 2 long years with bleeding in my intestines. Surgery did not help, and neither did the various medicines that I kept trying. I ate healthy and worked out, but all in vain. On the outside I was a fit young lady, but inside I was broken.
The breaking point came when one day, in January 2013, I suddenly could not breathe. As my husband rushed me to the hospital, my breathing became very laborious and my body became paralyzed. But through my struggle to breathe, I kept hearing a voice telling me not to worry as I had experienced something similar (fast breathing) in the Sudershan Kriya. It kept getting tougher and tougher to breathe, with each breath. In a matter of minutes, I could see my world crashing and I quickly started bidding goodbye to my husband and my young children. In my mind, I surrendered and peacefully prepared myself to leave this world behind. Then I lost consciousness. After a while, I regained consciousness and was told that my potassium level had dipped to 2.6 and at that critically low level, my heart beat could have stopped. After getting treated at the hospital for a few days, I returned home to a slow recovery. But still, the weakness would not leave me and the bleeding never stopped making me weaker each day. I suspected some disease to be eating at my body and felt I would not be able to see my children grow up. Doubts and fears would creep up every now and then, though I tried my best to be centred with Sadhna (Practice) and meditation. Guru’s Grace Finally, the day came, and I met Him (Sri Sri) on the auspicious occasion of Guru Poornima. As I walked into the meditation hall, He was already seated on stage. As soon as I saw Him, I froze in my spot. All of a sudden, He turned, and looked directly at me and smiled….His beautiful smile. Then while He met everyone individually for blessings, He looked at me, with a sparkle in His eyes and said, “Haan”. Just the way He says it!!! He blessed me, and I could almost hear His unsaid words that were telling me that happiness is on my way and that He is here for me. I came back miraculously healed, without any weakness, and the bleeding just vanished, as if it never existed. My doctor also smiled when I told him. There is nothing else to do but to smile. It’s all the Masters Grace. He gives us so much that He leaves no option but to be happy and to look forward to all the loving surprises He has in store for us. He keeps giving me strength and love to live with happiness and confidence. If He is by my side, then the whole world is mine. Jai Guru Dev.
- Parul Mehta